When your reality is better than your dreams...

As I was playing with you tonight, chasing you around the room as you ran away squealing-looking back, just wanting me to catch you so I could pin you down and tickle you, and kiss your neck… I couldn’t help but soak it all in and was overwhelmed with the moment, with your smile, with your laugh-that belly laugh really is the best sound I have ever heard!  I had a strange feeling like I was watching a movie; it was strange because I felt like the moment wasn’t real.  It really caught me off guard because I felt like the whole experience was a dream.  Was I really tickling and  kissing my son, the one I waited for, the one I prayed for, the one I thought would never exist??  And then you were here and you changed my life and you taught me how to really love.  In the beginning, I would spend my whole day holding you and drinking in your smell, and kissing your chubby cheeks. And now, all of a sudden, you are running around, and playing, and talking, and loving me back and tonight it was too much!  God prompted me to stop and watch the moment like I wasn’t living it, but instead, to burn that memory in my mind, my soul.  I will forever be able to close my eyes and watch that moment replay like a movie. 

It is sad how quickly children grow up, and how easy it is to be so busy with life that you forget to stop and appreciate the simple moments.  I pray that I will never be too busy to enjoy the simple moments.  Thank you, baby, for giving me so many special memories.  I can’t get enough of your laugh and your sweet smile.  I love you more than you will ever know.